reflecting on wishes

another one of my random blog posts..

if you're reading this.. thanks for following all of my "wishful thinking" throughout the months on this site (& maybe in my column?). i don't think i have too many readers, though. ANYWAY, let's get started..

i actually just went back and read some of my first posts.. and wow. i've changed sooo much! haha. i know that's kind of expected, but i didn't really think it would really happen. gee, and this whole time i've been thinking "i'm the same person i was a year ago!" (x

one post that caught my attention was the one i wrote on the night before my birthday. i typed up a list of small little wishes that i wanted to come true:

- have a splendid birthday dinner with my family. (i can check this one off now.)

- learn how to drive my lazy self around.

- have an eventful summer.

- meet some more celebrities.

- get a good score on the june SAT.

- go to vegas!

i thought it was kind of cool that, even though i still have a few months until my birthday, i can already check all of these things off of my list. i'm not going to elaborate on anything because it'll take too long. haha. but yes, i think i've fulfilled each and every one of these little things.

so what now? time for a new list! i think i'll call this one.. "things to do before i graduate." here goes (and again, these will be very minor things. i don't want to jinx anything!)...

before i graduate, i vow to...

-actually complete an original song

-throw a party. any type of party.

-get straight A's

-pull a really awesome prank on someone

i know that this is an incredibly short list.. but there's a simple explanation for that: i'm really content with my life. there's nothing that i'm absolutely dying to do. i almost never think "fml" when something doesn't go my way. i'm just.. fine. sure, there are some things that i'd like to change. but there's always going to be something that isn't quite perfect. in terms of friendships, i'm going to quote a hellogoodbye song (partially because i really like it, and partially because it's the first thing that came to mind): "i like where we are. here." my friends are freakin' great. all of you. thank you so much for sticking by my side. <3

p.s. i'd love it if some people would help me check off the things on my new list. i can't do it alone. well, i could. but it wouldn't be as much fun. (:

it could be worse

this post is for my girlies who are going through rough/confusing times right now. (: i hope this helps.

you see the sunshine peering through the clouds in the picture? that light represents the cheesiest, most clichéd, hope imaginable. and of course, the clouds are what you're going through right now. i know you may not think this, but hey, things could be worse. he could've said no. he could've ignored you. he could've lied. etccc...

i think the trick to getting over these debbie (not to be confused with the lovely debbi) downer times is to really focus on the positive things that actually have happened. yes, that sounds totally lame. and no, you may not think that there are positive aspects to your situations. but you know what? there is always more positive than negative. it may be a bit hard to dig deep enough to locate it, but it's there. trust me. if you read my blog info, you would know that i have a pessimist front with an optimistic mind. & this is the optimism shining through those icky rain clouds right now. (:

so instead of sitting around late at night/early in the morning thinking things like "what if it's all out of pity?" and "why did i have to be that girl?", just remember how lucky you are in the first place. we've all been blessed with wonderful (and sometimes jerk-like) people in our lives, and without them, none of us would be the same. until you know for sure that you've been cursed for life, i say just keep your head up and ignore those obnoxious little voices in your minds that tell you guys that you aren't good enough for whatever or whomever. even if things don't work out (and statistically, some things are bound to go wrong. sorry.), just view the opportunity as a learning experience and move forward. keep it positive!

to be continued..

i'm confused.

i'm indecisive.

i'm lacking inspiration.

i just need to figure everything out before i start writing again.

sorry.